I’m Not Sure I’m Ready for My Close-up, Mr. DeMille

Sometimes I see more clearly through a lens.

When I feel like I start admiring the productivity, perspective, or accomplishments of others I think about how I have spent my time and I choose a lens. Sometimes it is the actual lens of a camera through which I capture the happy faces of my children, my knitting projects in progress, the nuances of the space we call home.Image

I haven’t yet started photographing the meals  that fill me with contentment most Sundays when we eat off of my husband’s grandparents’ plates and I think about the past, the present, and the future.

I am not a real photographer.

I spend a lot of time admiring the photographic talents of others. Their ability to capture a simple scene that I can stare at for hours or to which I emotionally connect in some way.

It is why I spend so much time on Pinterest. I can sift through images that inspire me, encourage me, organize me, and teach me. It reminds me of the hours I spent as a kid, absorbing the images in my mother’s Life Magazines. It is a comfortable place to be.

I am on constant search for beauty.

It has been a long time since I have captured movement, in my body or otherwise. I have essentially taken the summer “off” from most anything dance related. This decision was mostly intentional but it has been a bit more expansive than I’d originally thought.

And it has me thinking about the movement I would like to capture, the meaning behind it, and the context it fits within the dance and education fields.

  • What, within dance,  is important to me right now?
  • What is important for my students to learn and at what stage of development?
  • How does dance as a creative outlet fit into my life when the choreography I produce for my job does not satisfy my needs as a choreographer?
  • How do I carve time to nurture my own relationship to dance separate from my role as an educator?

This year I am faced with courses to renew my teaching certificate, year two of new curriculum development for K-8, and mothering two young children.

At this point, I am deciding the points that will demand a zoom lens, better light, or mere orientation. We’ll see how it goes.

I strive to continue posting about the images I discover throughout the year.

But for now, I am curious. What is your point of view for the upcoming dance season?